{Underneath the Stars.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Dilemma

I am so lost right now.

love is the reason why we are here.
we are born because of love
we are here to spread it.
now i have found it
but i'm actually putting it aside for other stuff.
how contradicting isn't it.

someone tell me what to do.
haha. :/.

typing since, @ 1:47 AM

Friday, December 26, 2008

Ignorance is bliss

feigning silence,

i am really not sure about what i did,
i fell into a pit,
desperately trying to get out of it to get a better view of things.

i'm so damn sober about what i'm doing,
something which i've never done before,
something which i'm so damn unsure about.

i'm so sorry if i have to leave like that,
it's because i'm afraid i'd turn back,
and my life will get screwed up again.

i do still love you,
that's the reason why i had to escape,
to run away from it.
i'm easily influenced, easily changes my mind.
i definitely don't want that to happen.
i'm sorry i had to do this, feign drunk or whatever you call it.
don't look up on me, and i hope you like the present i gave you.

loves, retard.

typing since, @ 1:23 AM

Thursday, December 25, 2008

NewUrbanMale

reached home at 3 plus.
went out after work with my colleagues and my boss, Shenzi.
he's a wonderful guy. though he's gay.
lol. haha.

felt emo for awhile,
felt me and my baby couldn't make it through the third month.
it's not cause my feelings for her have faded.
it's cause i do not have time to love her.
don't wanna treat her unfair.
i love her.
i want the best for her.
as well as me lah.
well, it's really gonna be a major change in my life without her.
hope i am doing the right thing
mature is the bhb way of saying this, but i do love her still.

i hope she reads this cause i'm not gonna ask for a break-up.
just remain silent about loving each other.
how romantic right.
haha.
love isn't just the thing for me right now.
i may have changed cause of alot of things going on,
work, dance, gym, more importantly, studies, friends and family.
baby i just hope you "always be my baby".
mwa. <3.

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typing since, @ 3:46 AM